I can feel you next to me, your breath on my neck, the touch of your body on mine. But you’re nowhere to be found. I can hear  your voice, your soft speech  calling my name, yet I look around and You’re nowhere to be found. I can walk these empty halls, searching helplessly for the item that I want, that I need, that not only brings me peace, but brings me happiness. TRUE Happiness.

                These four walls are the only way into my heart, they know my thoughts, my ups, my downs, my Love. The Love we had, that ended up being mine.. and a Love You lost. This feeling, it not only brings me about to the thoughts of you, or the thoughts of me, but the thoughts of us. The memories we’ve made, but what hurts the most, is the memories we’ll never make…

                I’m here.  Always.  Forever. No matter what happens. You’ll be in my heart, in the deepest spot that no one else can take. You may have chosen another, but I haven’t. Not yet. Not soon. Maybe  not ever. But I’ll always be here…     

                My world is crumbling down, down so deep that the light has faded. I’m fading off into the darkness, into the realm of heartache. You’re still on my mind, I can see you, no, no I can’t. It’s my mind playing against itself. I feel a hand reaching down, Is it you? I can’t tell, you’re only an outline, only a figment of my imagination…

As I pick up the broken pieces of my world, jagged piece by jagged piece, I come to the realization that infact Life as we know it, is but a game filled with those who believe they are thw "winners" and those who are the true "winners". Those who believe they are, and have sought to make it known that they are the "winners" of Life, are indeed "winners". But those who have inspired others to keep on the path of respect and knowing what is right or wrong, are the true "winners". They are the ones that in the end posess the true quality, that us as civilized Socialites should desire...

Things seem so real, but at the same time. So, unrealistic.
One moment things are amazing, I'm in pure exctasy. The next, the world is falling down. Down on my hopes and dreams that has taken me so long to develop into almost absolute workong order. Then I tryin to complete these plans, but the certainty forseen is unpredictable.
As I do begin picking up the pieces, I feel every cut that is endured by my flesh. My mind has endured enough, as I've played mental war against myself. As I look to better myself on the level that will cause a more mature and less senseative human being, I start to realize the sheer magnitude of my intelluctual mind structure. Maybe on day I will be able use this to my advantage..

I'm so thankful you're okay. If I would have lost you, It would have me on the brink of losing my mind. The thought, it sends trembles down my spine. I can hear the soft words being spoken fron your soft lips, I Love You, I Love You.

 And even as the clouds dwell closer, I can see the darkness on the horizon. It may be just a passing storm, or it could be a looming disaster. I feel as if the world is slowly crumbling around me. This feeling is a pain no human should ever have to endure. My heart will stay strong, for you. No matter what. I must stay strong. Even through the storm, I must not sway with the wind, or be washed away with the rain, but I must stand firm and show my true Strength.